Mmm. I feel like I've wasted today really... I'll just say it's all been about the rest and recuperation or something. It's around half one in the morning (of the 14th, meh), and I am sitting in the living room watching the music channels, as my parents are at a wedding in Warwickshire. Woo. I've reached that point where I'm too tired to go to bed, much like yesterday.
And so today I have bathed, read a chapter of Power, Sex, Suicide, eaten a sandwich, brownies and chocolate, decided on a college to apply for at Durham Uni (Trevelyan's my choice), and written a tiny bit more of my personal statement. I have a copy of Pauls, which makes me hate him, as he has so much good stuff on it, but at the same time it comes across as really pretentious because he's decided to be so verbose... that was an example. He's too wordy. No one likes a smart arse. Which is why mine is going to be simple, but good - that is if it ever gets written. 32 days until the deadline! And then technically, I won't have to worry about it that much anymore... Sure. I'm likely to be on UCAS every day frantically checking the status of my application.
Tomorrow will have to be more productive, as I actually have quite a bit of work to be doing. And I've decided I will go and see the bursar about the cleaning job at school after hours. I'm off to bed, as Britneys just arrived on MTV (I'm a Slave 4 U), no thankyou.
13/09/2008
12/09/2008
12/09/08
Here endeth the first full week of term. Mighty tired I am - gym in my free today, and yesterday after school with Steph and Alex (who is very good at motivating me, as we cycled and I cycled behind him with a nice view of his... :) ). Lots of work to be done this weekend, and I realised I've forgotten to make any plans, which isn't that fun - and I'm home all alone tomorrow night as the parents are off to some wedding. I really should've invited people over, but I think Ruth is already having the girls over at hers so I'm just going to have a quiet night.
So yeahh I've regressed to socially inept again. I've just been so busy with schoolwork and distracting myself with the gym that I haven't really been focusing on people. Though I did help Rose today with some revision - she did badly in one of the exams so is retaking it in January and I am giving her chemistry lessons. I am a very good friend sometimes.
Trying to read Pride & Prejudice. I quite like it, but I'm not very good at finishing books that I start, I generally get distracted by another book before I can finish. eg. I still have The Other Boleyn Girl and Power, Sex, Suicide on the go... I WILL finish them!
Oh and I have blisters from rowing in the gym! I'm working hard. Plus I am terrible at rowing and I really want to improve, but blisters hurt! I will have arms and shoulders one day... one day. I think I might ask James to help me as he seemed really enthusiastic about me exercising and was telling me how easily I could get a six pack - I can't see it so far! ... I'll just pretend.
So yeahh I've regressed to socially inept again. I've just been so busy with schoolwork and distracting myself with the gym that I haven't really been focusing on people. Though I did help Rose today with some revision - she did badly in one of the exams so is retaking it in January and I am giving her chemistry lessons. I am a very good friend sometimes.
Trying to read Pride & Prejudice. I quite like it, but I'm not very good at finishing books that I start, I generally get distracted by another book before I can finish. eg. I still have The Other Boleyn Girl and Power, Sex, Suicide on the go... I WILL finish them!
Oh and I have blisters from rowing in the gym! I'm working hard. Plus I am terrible at rowing and I really want to improve, but blisters hurt! I will have arms and shoulders one day... one day. I think I might ask James to help me as he seemed really enthusiastic about me exercising and was telling me how easily I could get a six pack - I can't see it so far! ... I'll just pretend.
06/09/2008
10/09/08
Well it's been a little while again. I have no idea what I did last weekend. Which is a little scary. Premature Brain Death, anyone? (probably not a real condition, but no one would settle for less) I do remember having lunch with Lizzie and Alice which was alright. I love love hate love the gym at school - it officially rocks, I went during sport today which has left me feeling a little dead but I'm not used to all this crazy exercise! I am feeling much better about school work and life in general at the moment... I am in control and all powerful etc etc
Subjects are being managed - yes, I handed in a history coursework draft! (1200 words, expected to be 3000 words, better than nothing) and with the gym on the go, my life is complete... ish. I first went in my free on Friday, and Will was there which just made me chuckle and I was like 'I'm not going to leave, it's going to be great', in my head of course, but its verily awesome. I suck at the cross trainer, am afraid of the weights, and spend most of the time on the cycling machine, but who cares. But then I remember seeing ____'s bare hot ass last year in the changing rooms, and he is like a European cycling champion or something (hence not naming him at all), so I'll cycle my ass off until it's as hot as his. Mmmm naked cycling champion. Ahh memories.
I'll eventually finish my personal statement for uni - I made a start, which is awesome, but I read my sisters statement and the reference she got from school and they are just too good. Damn her! But I am just happy at the moment that I am keeping on top of life in general. :)
Subjects are being managed - yes, I handed in a history coursework draft! (1200 words, expected to be 3000 words, better than nothing) and with the gym on the go, my life is complete... ish. I first went in my free on Friday, and Will was there which just made me chuckle and I was like 'I'm not going to leave, it's going to be great', in my head of course, but its verily awesome. I suck at the cross trainer, am afraid of the weights, and spend most of the time on the cycling machine, but who cares. But then I remember seeing ____'s bare hot ass last year in the changing rooms, and he is like a European cycling champion or something (hence not naming him at all), so I'll cycle my ass off until it's as hot as his. Mmmm naked cycling champion. Ahh memories.
I'll eventually finish my personal statement for uni - I made a start, which is awesome, but I read my sisters statement and the reference she got from school and they are just too good. Damn her! But I am just happy at the moment that I am keeping on top of life in general. :)
04/09/2008
04/09/08
I cannot believe I forgot about posting yesterday - however I was truly knackered after the first day of school and my mind was on other things. So, my last first day at school, was pretty average. The year below who are sharing the common room are incredibly annoying, mainly because there are so many of them cohabiting the space with us, they are very noisy, and I don't actually know any of their names, let alone enough about them to strike up a friendly conversation. So basically the first day consisted of milling about in the common room, a history lesson, more milling in the common room and PE (eurgh!).
History was fine as luckily there was no mention of coursework, but the department is laying down some new 'tough rules'... we'll see how they turn out. And as for PE, it turned out much better than expected - I ended up doing badminton, which just meant pissing about with a few of the girls for an hour, but then, the shock and highlight of my day, getting changed afterwards. Now I am used to the guys in the changing rooms by now that I have no need to ogle them (it must be said, a few of the guys in my year have buffed up over the summer), but we now have PE with the year below. In particular, I was shocked to see someone using the school showers - as we do sport at the end of the day, most people just shower when they get home. And this guy, in the year below, was in the showers in a tiny pair of blue boxers which were getting wet as he stood under them, had the fittest body I have ever seen and I was overwhelmed. Recon so far: his name is Jack, he's in my house at school so we register together, he's new to the school and I'm thinking he's 100% straight. But oh my god, mmmm. I'm too nervous to say hello to him.
Back to today at school then, I had all four of my subjects with no free periods, which was painful, but I have made it through the day and this fills me with confidence - I will manage to do 4 A-levels this year! However as of today, the history coursework first draft is due in on Monday, and I have little odds and ends of work to do. It'll be fine. Tomorrow I am going to use the new school 'fitness room' in my free period, if possible, which is a little bit scary as I hate the gym environment, but there's only one way to gain muscle (if I ignore the option of steroids)! There's plenty more to be said of school but I'll let it out in dribs and drabs over the weekend.
History was fine as luckily there was no mention of coursework, but the department is laying down some new 'tough rules'... we'll see how they turn out. And as for PE, it turned out much better than expected - I ended up doing badminton, which just meant pissing about with a few of the girls for an hour, but then, the shock and highlight of my day, getting changed afterwards. Now I am used to the guys in the changing rooms by now that I have no need to ogle them (it must be said, a few of the guys in my year have buffed up over the summer), but we now have PE with the year below. In particular, I was shocked to see someone using the school showers - as we do sport at the end of the day, most people just shower when they get home. And this guy, in the year below, was in the showers in a tiny pair of blue boxers which were getting wet as he stood under them, had the fittest body I have ever seen and I was overwhelmed. Recon so far: his name is Jack, he's in my house at school so we register together, he's new to the school and I'm thinking he's 100% straight. But oh my god, mmmm. I'm too nervous to say hello to him.
Back to today at school then, I had all four of my subjects with no free periods, which was painful, but I have made it through the day and this fills me with confidence - I will manage to do 4 A-levels this year! However as of today, the history coursework first draft is due in on Monday, and I have little odds and ends of work to do. It'll be fine. Tomorrow I am going to use the new school 'fitness room' in my free period, if possible, which is a little bit scary as I hate the gym environment, but there's only one way to gain muscle (if I ignore the option of steroids)! There's plenty more to be said of school but I'll let it out in dribs and drabs over the weekend.
02/09/2008
02/09/08
So shortly after I blogged yesterday I was invited over to Lizzie's house for the evening, with Louisa, and I accepted the offer and had a merry time making brownies and cookies, watching Hollyoaks and playing scrabble. Which is a lot more fun than it sounds, even if it isn't exactly 'wild'. But the main point is it cheered me up and took my mind off Will and now I am in a very 'fuck him, if he's not going to even attempt to be my friend then I can't be fucking bothered' mood. I am sure by the end of the day tomorrow my sad/happy meter will have swung back to sad and I will be moping over him again, but that can't be helped.
Because of course folks, I am returning to school tomorrow - the last first day is here and it is weird. I still feel like I'm eleven. In fact, in about eight hours I will be at school, getting my timetable, being lectured at about how I've had eight weeks and have had plenty of time to start my personal statement/history coursework, and general fun and games along those lines. I am actually quite nervous, and although I've been looking forward to it for a while, I would happily stay in bed and read a book tomorrow. Of course, Will is not in any of my classes, but he'll still be in and around the common room. I think somehow it'd be really nice if I didn't see him at all - because once I see him I can't stop thinking about him... and about how he will look at everyone apart from me. But I'll chat with everyone else and it'll be all good and dandy.
Today has been spent doing the 'BIG CLEAN', which involves... cleaning. My room is now spotless, no stone has been left unturned in my quest to remove rubbish. Cupboards have been sorted, school bags have been packed, biology work has been finished off haphazardly, and I ate fried eggs and beans on toast for lunch - now I don't usually mention what I eat on here but I hadn't made this in so long and I cooked it just right and it was bloody gorgeous in that dirty fry up way. (Yes, I realise it wasn't a full fry up, just the bits I like the most). Yum. I'm off to sleep, and then to school... eeeeek!
Because of course folks, I am returning to school tomorrow - the last first day is here and it is weird. I still feel like I'm eleven. In fact, in about eight hours I will be at school, getting my timetable, being lectured at about how I've had eight weeks and have had plenty of time to start my personal statement/history coursework, and general fun and games along those lines. I am actually quite nervous, and although I've been looking forward to it for a while, I would happily stay in bed and read a book tomorrow. Of course, Will is not in any of my classes, but he'll still be in and around the common room. I think somehow it'd be really nice if I didn't see him at all - because once I see him I can't stop thinking about him... and about how he will look at everyone apart from me. But I'll chat with everyone else and it'll be all good and dandy.
Today has been spent doing the 'BIG CLEAN', which involves... cleaning. My room is now spotless, no stone has been left unturned in my quest to remove rubbish. Cupboards have been sorted, school bags have been packed, biology work has been finished off haphazardly, and I ate fried eggs and beans on toast for lunch - now I don't usually mention what I eat on here but I hadn't made this in so long and I cooked it just right and it was bloody gorgeous in that dirty fry up way. (Yes, I realise it wasn't a full fry up, just the bits I like the most). Yum. I'm off to sleep, and then to school... eeeeek!
01/09/2008
01/09/08
I am appalled. It is September! Summer is OVER. EURGH. Well, certainly drawing to a close. This morning I have popped into school to register for my final year - and I will be carrying on with all four of my A-levels. Hmm. Hopefully it will all be well and good. Had to go back to school after I'd left as Ginny text me asking me to go and do her options for her, as she had been to school and forgotten to hand in the form! Silly Billy.
I saw pretty much everyone at school today, including Will, but he didn't speak to me/look at me. And I figured out we're not in the same chemistry set next year either, so I will no longer have any close contact with him at school. Which I figured was okay until I started walking out of school and saw Alice waiting for her boyfriend in his car, started chatting to her and she said I was looking really down... and I realised I was really upset about Will, as its been 8 months now and still theres no peace treaty signed, and I've been thinking about him lots for the last few days and I just need him back as my friend again. But it's not happening. Alex is in my history set though :) so I'm gonna embark on that friendship methinks.
On a lighter note, got back from Marie's house, where I had an awesome holiday of sorts, went to the beach and paddled in the sea, after a rather iffy crab sandwich, and climbed the hundred and ninety nine steps to the abbey at the top of the town we were visiting. I love going to hers and getting away from where I live. Yorkshire is just a nicer place to be.
Just repotted Bert and Ernie. They've grown lots. Oh my cotton plant children, how I love ye. Got to clean my horrendous room before school starts on Wednesday as I don't think a good learning environment has so much stuff on the floor you cant see the carpet.
I saw pretty much everyone at school today, including Will, but he didn't speak to me/look at me. And I figured out we're not in the same chemistry set next year either, so I will no longer have any close contact with him at school. Which I figured was okay until I started walking out of school and saw Alice waiting for her boyfriend in his car, started chatting to her and she said I was looking really down... and I realised I was really upset about Will, as its been 8 months now and still theres no peace treaty signed, and I've been thinking about him lots for the last few days and I just need him back as my friend again. But it's not happening. Alex is in my history set though :) so I'm gonna embark on that friendship methinks.
On a lighter note, got back from Marie's house, where I had an awesome holiday of sorts, went to the beach and paddled in the sea, after a rather iffy crab sandwich, and climbed the hundred and ninety nine steps to the abbey at the top of the town we were visiting. I love going to hers and getting away from where I live. Yorkshire is just a nicer place to be.
Just repotted Bert and Ernie. They've grown lots. Oh my cotton plant children, how I love ye. Got to clean my horrendous room before school starts on Wednesday as I don't think a good learning environment has so much stuff on the floor you cant see the carpet.
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